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January 05, 2003

Bitter Creative Disappointment

So all the relatives were finally dispatched, the sundry visiting friends sent on their way and Christmas At Ours (tm) ended. We'd done all the urgent house decoration jobs in the run-up to the visits, so there was no pressing tasks hanging over us. And the cellar was drying out nicely.

Time then, finally, after over a year, to Do Some Music.

And it was rubbish. I found it really hard, the gear didn't work as I remembered, everything took loads longer than I expected, and my 'pet samples' I'd had hanging around failed to sound even remotely funky when I got them into the sampler. Even starting again from scratch with just some random bits and bobs of sample cds didn't produce the requisite flow of ideas. Absolutely nothing happened whatsoever.

Given that I was planning to use some of my possible forthcoming freedom from regular employment to work on music - both on my own and with friends - this has been a bit of a blow. After all, I only took the job at the beginning of this current run of employment as a way of paying for music projects - the fact it took over my life and kept me away from them for years was purely academic.

If I can't go back to the one thing I could always go back to for solace - where do I go?

And, by corrollary, what am I?

Posted by Tom Dolan at January 5, 2003 07:50 PM

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If it's any comfort I met a guy over the holidays who plays for a living and I too regretted giving it up 20 years ago. Hang in there!

Posted by: Euan at January 5, 2003 08:23 PM

I chatted to another musical friend last night, and we both agreed I was basically having a huge great sulk about it, and setting my expectations too high. Both of which are entirely valid reactions under the circumstances...

Posted by: Tom at January 6, 2003 07:23 AM

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